April is Autism Awareness Month

Once in a great while, I will find a subject that is difficult for me to write about.  Autism Awareness is one of those topics.  It’s not because I am unfamiliar with Autism.  I am intimately aware of this subject as it is a part of my daily life.  It permeates everything that makes up my life.  I have dealt with autism as a mother, as a homeschooler, as a Scout parent, a teacher, as a extended family member, and as a friend.

But, how can I explain the complexity of emotions to someone who would possibly be unaware of its existence?   How can I possibly verbalize the struggles that I have seen and as a Mommy, been unable to fix?  To see in my child’s eyes that he is aware of the friendships that he is missing out on is goes beyond mere words.  That he struggles with wanting closeness with others, but finds achieving it painfully elusive is awful.  To watch a sadness and anxiety develop, despite excellent counselors, psychiatrists, doctors, mentors, tutors, and adult friends, knowing that it might not ever  get better.  Ever.

To know that he has been called ‘stupid’ and ‘retard’.  To know beyond all doubt that he is the most compassionate and loving human being I have ever met.

To know that I don’t deserve him. And I will never be the parent he deserves.

 

I love someone with autism 2011 – Video from People CD Inc. on Vimeo.

Till next time,
Your Favorite Jewelry Lady, Premier Designs Jewelry

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6 Responses to April is Autism Awareness Month

  1. This is a beautiful post which makes me know that your son is as lucky to have you as you are to have him.

  2. Petula says:

    This is a very touching post…. I appreciate you sharing. And I also feel bad because I keep forgetting to put up my post to let people know that it’s Autism Awareness Month. Thanks for the reminder and for putting real words to this. I can not even fathom your or your son’s experiences and challenges. I’m glad I met you at UBP11!

    • Jan Hatchett says:

      Thank you. I think that this is the first time that I ever wrote a post for Autism Awareness Month. I was inspired by the video and wanted to share it. Thanks for stopping by and I hope you will come by again sometime!

  3. Linda says:

    What a beautiful post. It is amazing how much we can learn from our children in all circumstances. You are both so blessed to have each other.

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